She cut the tie on facebook so I can no longer see her status. Instead I log on to a friends and see her profile there. She's so beautiful in everyway.

Recently updated profile pictures; she'sso cute and wonderful. She has a new dress on and her hair is done up. It hurts because I know that she would have done those things for me.

I see her in pictures with other guys and I know taht she has someone new in her life. The guy strangely, kind of looks like me...Ultimately, if he treats her well then I should be happy for her. And really, thankful that thsi new person came in to give her what I could not.

How can you do that though - How can you feel happy when she's with someone else, when every time you see her smiling you wish it was you right next to her.

I wish I could make her laugh again. I wish I could be the one to make her feel safe and loved. But I know after everything I did these wounds are too deep to ever be repaired. The moments where we both believed it could work would be fleeting as the onset of the past memories would be too strong.

Deep down I miss her so much....but honestly, do i really love her the way to go after her? Is it deep enough to go to the depths to be with her again?

I don't think so...and so I must let go...and be happy she's with someone else.