Life

Karma. Does it exist?

Is there some sort of bank where your life's actions get debited and credited? Jesus christ, what is with these finance analogies. Training at work is really consuming every part of me...

I mention Karma because of the last couple subway rides. I take the seven train out of Manhattanto Queens where I live. The seven train is esssentially the immigrant line. In my racist/stereotyping mind it's the train that brings all the low cost mexicans/chinese from queens into manhattan to run the restaurants and any other service oriented jobs. Every morning i'm on the train it's newspapers from all around the world. I see the World Journal from China, I see traditional chinese newspapers signalling people from Taiwan/Singapore and then I see mexican gazettes; the entire gammut. Anyways, the point is, I think it's because of this demographic taht I am more exposed to the nyc hobos that ride the subway. The past couple days i've gone home there have been a spike in the amount of beggars/hobos asking for money.

Each one of them I opened wallet to.

I've never done that before. In the past two days i've tripled the amount of givings to beggars in my past three years in nyc.

Why? I cant help but feel obliged. It's not necessarily Karma. Christians don't believe in Karma.

I just cant help but picture the scenes in Matthew, Mark and Luke when Jesus is walking through as treet of beggars and subsequently heals/answers all their pleas.

I just feel that it's the best thign to do.

Whatever.

I have the series 7 exam coming up on the 29th and i'm scared shitless.