Inadequeacy

Facebook.com is productivity's foil. I've spent hours clicking along on this online community to really get absolutely nothing genuine or wholesome from it. From each sesion, i learn senseless shit like, "John, the kid i met for no more than half an hour and then decided to randomnly facebook add me, is having a bad day"

Of course I dont feel this way everytime I logon...i have just a bit more sense than that. I mean, i have to be honest about it, facebook has been a vital tool in...chasing booty. You meet a girl the night before and you dont remember what she looked like. IT can save you from making a date with a real double bagger.

Anyways, my point is - i feel lame. And it's from what i just read of other people on facebook. Their "About Me" their "Interests", it all seems like everyone is just a class and a half ahead of me. I feel fucking uncultured. I feel shallow, aloof, senseless, APATHETIC. I just feel plain.

My entries have gotten so damn narcissitic recently, but it's only here that i can openly write about my self-qualms and shortcomings openly.

I dont care who u are out there..but i gaurantee you I am much more uninteresting than you are. I dont play an instrument, i have no favorite authors, despite hardly having no experience with playing an instrument, i'm not even anywhere close to being a music conossieur like many ppl that dont play, i'm not philosophical, i'm not super athletic, i' not a brilliant writer, i'm not charismatic, and i'm not a sports guru.

I feel so average. What am i? I'm a recent college graduate, finished school in 3 and a half years, despite transferring, i'm asian, i'm gonig to be working on wall street, not terribly attractive, favorite sport is tennis, i love rap, and my favorite color is green.

What am I? I have an opinion on a few things. i'm no expert. There's nothing wrong with just being average at a lot of things, being a jack of all trades would be great. My problem is, i'm average at not enough things.

How many fucking asian americans are there that went to school, got a degree in some bullshit, is now working in finance and loves hip hop. I basically just named the entire asian american population sans pre-med kids.

I want to be able to speak intelligently about something. I remember this one dousche back at hs, that had an absolute obsession with the los angeles lakers- his fetish was kobe bryants jock. As douschey as this kid was, if u brought up the lakers, u'd be in an entire house of pain.

My interests are too general. Sure, i love the classics - ender's game, brave new world, the humanities (epic poems)....i love tennnis, i can have an opinion on just about any pro athelete right now....

I dont understand. Self-edification is a bitch.